i am really in dilemma right now. as much as i do not want to leave, i have to. i have to be selfish once in a while. i wouldn't want to miss a big opportunity and it's better this way. no more stress over unnecessary arguments. anyway, today is considered quite a good day for me. met someone and finally talked about something serious. i was happy then something always had to happen after 6pm. sigh.. i just wanted to share my good news to you but you seem like seeing my face annoys you. i know you have your own problem and hence i decide to just keep it to myself. maybe i should just reserve myself. that's the best way. this raya will be a sad celebration for me. i have missed two hari rayas due to work. double sigh. i envy those who can actually take leave. though i am not really into celebration, deep inside, i do still want to celebrate and be in those fancy costume. looks like this weekend, after work, i just have to go home straight and sleep it off and monday afternoon i'd have to head down to clementi police division. so troublesome... anyhoos, here wishing all my dear readers, selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin.