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have you ever felt, the cold and lifeless hand of yourself? have you ever touched your dreams and felt the simplistic joy of feeling them become reality? and only to abandon them for reasons you cannot explain? have you ever watched your family, who once shared the greatest of loves, suffering from something that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,tear them all apart? do you know, firsthand, the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man, every woman, and every child? have you seen its face as it randomly seeks, a soul to torment and destroy? do you know the darker side of life? the one that awakens you, in the still of the night, crying to the unknowable god's? save me from myself. does your heart constantly question whether humanity is obtainable, in a world corrupted with suffering and where war is the favoured solution for peace? if you really want to know me and understand the forces that compel me to move on, then take these questions and take this pain for this who i am.
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today was fantastic! i had so much fun. didn't expect this to happen though. ok, here goes the story. i woke up at 9.37am because there was a loud commotion outside. they(my sister and her friend) were preparing the barbeque stuff. they will be going for a gathering cum barbeque at east coast park. mom decided to tag along. she said that she wants to go to the changi beach to sit and relax. i was so shocked knowing that it came from her! hah.. she is well known for her laziness and couldn't be bothered. so to cut the story short.. after sending my sister and her friends to east coast park, we headed to changi.. had our lunch there. the time spent there was so wonderful. after our lunch, mom refused to go home. this time, i give up because i was feeling so sleepy. had only 2 hours of sleep. she wants to go to pasir ris park. like.. huh?? ok.. head down there and walked around.. sat at the bench and talked about the past and all.. so funny. i guess we sat there for an hour.. and decided to move off. this time, she wants to go to labrador park!! the funniest part. we got lost.. drove up and down the hill.. we laughed till we teared.. it was just so fun. i've never had so much fun before.. been quite sometime though. i am just so excited now that i can't even type proper english. i must have made lots of grammatical errors. right, miss shira? LOL.. next week.. i can't wait for next week... HOLIDAYS!!!
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the date today is 10th June 2006. a wonderful day indeed. i have lots to blog actually but i shall omit some stuff. which i think its not worth blogging. :) i don't know what came over me last night around 4am. i felt the urge to eat keropok lekor. so i dialled my friend's number to ask her to accompany me to johor later in the day. she agreed and i decided to let my sister tag along. that was something that i will never do especially if its need to travel more than half an hour. maybe at that point of time i got possesed by the lekor ghost? i woke up exactly at 10am to bathe. thank god i prepared my passport, purse, mp3, handphone and other essential stuff to bring along last night. so i just have to bathe and play with my baby before i go off. as usual the journey to kranji is something that i dread. what's new for me, right? if my journey to kranji is something i really dread, then only god knows how darn i really dread standing in 170 to the immigration checkpoint. for singapore, it was ok. i don't mind queuing for long as long as there is air con to cool me down. but for malaysian's checkpoint.. no need to say already. it seems that the government(MALAYSIA'S) really wants to save on electricity on the expense of us. the layout of the MALAYSIA'S checkpoint is just BAD. i hope that after a few months of savings, they will be able to buy more fence to keep the freaking queue line STRAIGHT and not merging line. the stupid officers refuse to do anything too. i was so pissed. i couldn't take it anymore till one point of time i felt like screaming at the top of my lungs. PARDON ME IF YOU ARE A MALAYSIAN AND HAPPEN TO READ THIS. SORRY BECAUSE I AM A TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN WHO JUST SIMPLY LOVES TO COMPLAIN.
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F.O.R.G.O.T.T.E.N I'm giving up on everything. Because you messed me up. Don't know how much you screwed it up. You never listened. That's just too bad. Because I'm moving on & I won't forget.You were the one that was wrong. I know I need to step up and be strong. Don't patronize me. Have you forgotten everything that I wanted? Do you forget it now? You never got It. Do you get it now?Gotta get away. There's no point in thinking about yesterday. It's too late now & it won't ever be the same. We're so different now. I know I wanna run away.
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i was told that i should approach love and life with humility and an open heart. whatever i put out there, is coming right back my way in my record time. sweet or sour, its pretty much of my choice in the realm of romance at this moment. yes, i do treasure the simplest moments in life, although the current circumstances makes me more difficult to find.
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