You told me you don’t want to celebrate my birthday. Fine, i’ve come to terms with that. I deserve whatever cold treatments you want to give me. It’s not as if i am not used to any of that. Also, what is the use of planning whatever for me but you are not going to turn up? What makes you think that i will even turn up? Don’t worry because deep down i know you don’t even want or wish it to happen. No problem about that. I know you are unhappy with me because of the trip. Nothing i can say now to defend myself. You can have all the negative thoughts of me and afterall, in everyones’ eyes, i am the bad one. I am the strayed one here and forget everything. It’s just unfair. I think it’s best if i stay alone in a cave. Sigh.. nobody i have to please and i only have to please myself. This time, i’m not going to be the nice me once upon a time ago.