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just one word can kill a friendship; GOSSIP. it would be better if we can stay out of it. to me, gossiping about unknown strangers is fine but gossiping about our own circle of friends.. i don't think its appropriate. i don't want to be in that kind of group. its unhealthy. i am not talking about anyone here but just blog about it in general. someone even commented that i've changed that i no longer the girl they used to know. yes, true. i am ignorant to my surroudings. that helps, you know? it makes you much happier. lol. oh yeah! anyways, GREAT SINGAPORE SALE!!! the discounts are fantabulous. the only time for me to shop is on sundays or saturdays evening. saturday evenings are reserved for clubbing man. sundays are reserved for family.. i want and need to shop for new clothings, bags, shoes, perfumes, accessories..etc..etc.. i need to get new handphone too! wow. looks like you have someone driving you home every now and then huh? congratulations hope you will be happy. anyways, we rarely contact and talk now i am still angry at you for breaking your promises though looks like my spongebob's event will be off too urgh whatever. |
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it's impossible to understand what is going through in a person's heart. if your feelings for someone had faded, be honest and stop leading them on. i am someone to whom love is everything. some said that if you give someone whatever they want, they will quickly get bored. is it true? sigh, i didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard. are you trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt? why does your pride make you run and hide? are you that afraid of me? i know its a lie whatever you are keeping inside. this is not how you wanted it to be, right? actually, looking back at whatever worries i have, it reminded me of a story of an old man on his deathbed having lots of troubles in his life most of which had never happened. alright, i need to get ready for work.. till then...
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alright, i promised to touch on racism in singapore on my previous post, right? i will not be blogging about that now. something happens which makes me more upset than the racism in singapore. some of you might see it as nothing hurtful but to me it does. my life revolves around my workplace and home. its either work or home. i have no problems with my family and my colleagues. but it seems that my colleague has something against me. no, i am not talking about you, liz. you probably know who i am referring to. i seriously have no idea. she is blowing hot and cold. to that someone, why are you treating me this way? what wrong did i do to you? i am as observant as the others too. don't think i am oblivious to my surroundings. i know very well what is happening but i am just keeping mum about it. i know i have apologised to you and things were fine. now, after liz thought that i refused to talk to her, she followed suit. i really miss those moments where we wil sit and eat together, joke together and even share the darnest secrets together. what is happening? do you really hate me that much? i wish you could come up to me and tell me straight in the face. you know... rather than you go to someone else and complain everything to them. i know can be a dimwit and imbecile at times. please forgive me for whatever i have done or said to you. someone asked me something which made me think. she asked.. why am i so affected by all these and she wants me to just ignore and just continue to work well. well, know what? i just love them so much and if all these goes on for a month, i don't think i can work happily then. earlier on, i wanted to greet her in the morning and when i look at the, god knows whether she pretended not to see me. i feel quite disturbed by it. anyways, yesterday after class, liz messaged me saying.. "whats e fucking probs? wat wrong did i DO TO U"? i laughed when i read her message. she thought that i was angry at her because she cancelled the dinner on me for another reason. oh well, i am like getting used to it and i was fine. so liz, no worries. i am not petty ok? the thing that annoys me terribly is that when i ask the centre a question.. only one answered. i am surprised that my question falls on deaf ears!!! you guys totally ignored me! the expressions and the reactions given.. argh.. it was just so.. unbelievable. if my manager were to read this, she might be smiling and saying.. " now you know how i feel huh.." LOL! anyways, i try my very best to make everyone happy and to please everyone. i think, at least i deserve something better than this. oh whatever.. i am just blogging and the argument between me and liz is over. . . sad sad nurul..
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i enjoyed my way back home last night. you guys want to know why? because, last sunday, i just uploaded another 3 videos to my mp3 player. so i wathched it while i'm on my way home. without me realising, i've already reached boon lay. these few days, i feel extra tired. i don't know why. so lethargic. but the thought of doing my 'maths enrichment course' just motivates me to go to work. if its not for that, i don't know what else to motivate me.i'm quite shocked to hear that the bitch is back into our lives. she managed to get my father's new handphone number. she even called and messaged him. the funny thing is that she feels angry knowing that my mother actually follows my dad to the office every afternoon. my mom might be paranoid but i understand clearly why she is doing all these. just who is she to feel that way? she is nothing. i told my mom to not get so affected by her presence now and just continue to live life normally. show her that we can still be as one big happy family! i won't blog further about this because the rest are just so so damn gross and RA! sigh.. god.. please don't let me go through another big hurdle of yours. i had enough at work and i don't want another at home. thank you. oh yeah.. someone commented that since i started working at my current workplace, i've become more matured in handling problems. eg, once i had a dispute with my colleague and how i handled it.. my family problems and how i handled it.. all thanks to my advisor! she is none other than kak sura. lol..! alright, got to bathe and go to woooooork. lucky thing its short hours today!
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       i was supposed to post 3 entries back to back. i was too lazy and busy to even log on to my messenger. today is sunday and the only day i can upload all my photoss, transfer pictures and songs from handphone to computer.. etc. anyhoos, last wednesday, i watched my first R21 movie at cathay cineleisure! no, its not some sex movie but a thriller. total gore-ness. i like the crowd.. matured crowd. lesser disturbance. the movie ended at around 9.30pm and we head down straight to heeren to eat at the vil'age also used to be known as marche. marvelously delicious and of course good food means extra bucks to be taken out from your wallet. it was worth it anyways. finally, i've experienced what it feels to be in yangtze cinema! went there after work with my girlfriends to watch another R21 movie! we went there just for the fun of it and to actually experience.. when we stepped into the cinema, we felt like a superstar! all eyes were on us and they really scrutinized us from head to toe. they are all apeks! this is hilarious, can't believe they actually projected the wrong movie!!!! an apek walked out immediately and shouted.. "sleeping la.. sleeping". it was a nice evening i had but towards the end of the night; wasn't really good. i was left all alone. thank you to liz for accompanying me all the way to jurong east. hell yeah, screw that minah tudung!anyway, in my next entry, i will be blogging about racism in singapore. so much for promoting racial harmony and stuff.. in the end.. i still think its just nothing but just for show. |
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those were the pictures taken on saturday night at baladi restaurant at arab street. we(in the pictures) had real fun. after a long day at work, the only way to destress and relax is with your best pals; smoking away. LOL. after sheesha-ing, we decided to drop by cash box studio at apollo centre to scream our hearts out but only to find out they have rooms available only after 1am. by then, we would have lie flat on the ground. LOL. after much thinking between catching the midnight movie and pool, my best friend decided on pool. we follow suit. one day, i will really email the comfort company to complain about their drivers! i don't want to blog about it but we had fun cursing them. hahaha. after so long, we managed to hail one and off to paradiz centre for pool. yeah, so that was how i spent my saturday night. thank you to liz and nazreen for wanting to go out with me/us. alright.. as for sunday.. just another mundane day.. oh, not so mundane maybe. my dad bought me perfume! smells nice. thank you very much. finally, my room has a new look! i was bored at home and decided to do something with my room. not that my room is in a mess but just feel like having a new surrounding. i tore everything that is on my wall and yes my room looks much much more bigger. i now even have my own spongebob corner! actually, everywhere you turn in my room, you wil see spongebob. lol, who cares.. i am enjoying it. i am so obsessed with spongebob. my mom commented something.. she said that my room looks like a kid's room. i will still continue to hunt for spongebob's items. oh yah! i planned to blog about my pay but was too excited about my new room. here it goes.. my mom has been nagging about my pay. at the rate that i am working.. she said i should be paid more and my allowance from my dad is much much more higher than my pay.i feel confused. i really love the job but i can't deny the pay is ridiculously low. my mom wants me to quit now and look for another job. part of me wants to leave and another wants to stay. i love my students and i enjoy teaching them. my cousin advised me to stay on because i just started working and maybe who knows my boss will offer me a full time position. i told her that if she really want, she could have done that long time ago. there are others who worked much more longer than me. urgh, pigs will fly if that happen. i wonder something.. my pay this month is extremely low. honestly.. i would have to ask my manager about it. really got to look at my payslip. argh.. don't want to blog about it anymore. heart wrenching..
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i don't know whether i should blog about this topic or not. its been in me for quite sometime. till i blog it then i would feel satisfied. erm.. ok, maybe i shall just give it a go. no harm anyways. lately, the situation at work wasn't so good. now, when i come to work, i don't really feel happy but more tensed. i don't know why. i have this colleague who now maybe dislike me? it was because of my stupid jokes. sigh, we were so close but everything is ruined. i am totally disappointed with myself. i did apologised to her but still, i don't think she is happy. i just want to let her know that i am truly sorry for whatever that i've said and totally regret it. alright, moving on to the next problem. earlier on, i made a major mistake at work. i overlooked some answers and marked it correct. student's mother called in to complain to my boss. :( while i was marking all the class works earlier, my boss approached me. lucky she wasn't screaming at me. she was really soft spoken and i was tooo embarassed to look her in the eyes. she advised me on certain areas where i have to really be aware of. example, student's handwritings, allignment.. etc. i admit i was at fault and just nod my head. apparently, i am not the only one involved in this matter. 2 others are involved too. sigh, i really couldn't concentrate at the last hour because i was too disturbed by the problem. class ended at 6 and i thought i could rush home but i was handed 1 saturday's folder for marking. if the folder has 2 or 3 sheets for marking, i wouldn't mind but it was one whole stack of maths and english worksheets. and with the student's illegible handwriting, it makes the marking process much more slower. i didn't say a word but just mark trying to make up for the mistakes that i've done. ok, this is the annoying part.. while i was marking, 2 colleagues of mine, insteaad of offering help to mark and also help my other colleagues for sorting, they just walk around getting ready to go home. god, don't you have eyes to see? she actually stopped by me and asked.."what are you doing?" ok, hello? what am i doing? she got to be kidding. also, that .. that .. argh, forget it. they are together. some things are better left unsaid. but my friend, liz saw an indignant expression on my face. teresa, i understand how you feel. i feel it too but just hang in there alright? you still have me to make you laugh. hahah. liz, what i can say is... its better to light a candle than curse the darkness.
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A MILLION THANKS TO: - Kak Nora Mr Alfie Kak Sura Selvi Jessie Tina Suganthi Priya Teresa Liz Kak Ita Hendriaty Shira Sunarsih Mummy Daddy thank you very much for all the wonderful presents! it was definitely the best birthday ever. i really enjoyed myself for the past few days since 27 april (my actual birthdate) till tonight 1st may. its the nature for turning 21 maybe? words can't describe how i felt for the past few days. you guys are just so sweeet that i am afraid that i might get diabetes. lol. the surprise birthday party at the karaoke lounge was hellllllova FUN! worth mentioning on saturday night.. celebrated at a club. it was just full of surprises. the dedications and requests. having the whole club knows that its your birthday and they are celebrating it together is total coolness! after the party at ipanema, we head down to our designated hotel to rest and have our very late supper. the hotel was wonderful too. hehehehe. it was just so sweet that they know i am a spongebob freak and they literally showered me with spongebob's merchandises on me! thank you very much to liz and shira. i understand that you guys did some research right? thank you sooo much for your time. special thanks to my manager; kak sura. seriously, i was taken aback when i saw your personal gift. i love you kak. coolest manager ever! i am just so excited that you might find this entry like rojak. bits of here and there so just bear with it ok? earlier on, my family gave me a surprise party too. that is the bestest because.. erm.. my dad actually kissed me on my forehead. most precious moment ever. other than the cash gift, he gave me a diamond necklace plus a key pendant. so nice.. thanks to my maid too! she was the first to wish me and to give me present too. how cute; she gave me spongebob's apron. i love it. initially, i was soo afraid of being alone when it comes to my birthday but thanks to my colleagues and true friends, they make my wish come true. though i am a bit disappointed with a few.. that doesn't matter. i can't believe i am 21.. time flies.. well, least i can watch RA movie now.. i am sure they will ask for my IC twice. i can't even pass through for M18 movie. oh ya, special thanks to SHA GIES the live band for making my birthday a happening one. as usual, i will upload all the photos on yahoo and videos on youtube. if you guys want to view.. just tag me at my tagboard, right? |