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200th post. had boxing earlier on. very very tough session tonight. no idea why..but i managed to pull through. tonight is not a good night for me. its such a depressing night that i nearly sprayed half a bottle of my deep sleep spray onto my body, bedsheets and pillow. i do not wish to comment or say anything on why i am feeling this way. maybe its not worth mentioning or its... i have no idea. but a thing or two which made me smile for a while and back to my depress mode. i just hope to sleep it off(which i normally do) and wake up tomorrow facing a new day. i would love to keep myself busy tomorrow. anyways, i have an assignment that needs to be done by friday and i am not even half done. tomorrow is already thursday and there will be 2 parties. just what the hell was i thinking not having the mood to do any work right? fuck me. i need to reach work tomorrow latest by 815am. got to cash out and i will immediately continue with my assignment. i think i might know why i am feeling shit. probably i've hurt 2 person today. 2 important person in my life. you know who you are. i know sorry is just another word and you won't accept my apology. i definitely regret over whatever that happened. when i am down, i will always have a song that relates to it. now, leona lewis - better in time has been playing for the 7th time. it really relates to what i feel.. i guess.. okay, i will leave you with the lyrics. It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realize that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love youI'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I'll be living And I know that time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gon' be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will [Chorus: x2] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time
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