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one question; what are we now? i know you won't know the answer. i definitely don't know the answer. well, actually i do but.. i don't know. so confusing. love is blind but after experiencing it for a long time you should become familiar with some particular spots. let's change subject. yesterday i had quite a bad night. for a while though. i swear i dislike her now. i am sorry to be disrespecting your mother but she's a bit too much. i can't accept whatever that was being said. its just unfair. i wish i could meet up with her and talk but its safer not to. i am afraid that i will just lose my cool. anyhoos, i signed up for class 2B and today will be my first lesson! i am pretty excited. not as excited as class 3 though. i was told that per day, i could have 4 sessions at one interval. i won't be that crazy though. lol. actually, right now, i feel like being wordy but i don't want to bore out my readers. hahaha. fuck. i am just going to express my feelings.. guess what guys. i discovered something recently. the best way to start the day is with laughter, the best way to end it is with more laughter! do you agree with me? i wish to blog about my family life. my family is a broken heart. screaming to be pieced back together. my dad is the jagged edges and cracks which caused the pain and broken heart. my mom is the stronger side of the broken heart which has less jagged edges and cracks. i am the weakest side of the heart which has the most jagged edges and cracks all over! all the yelling, all the crying, all the broken promises. you said that nothing would change, that everything would be the same. you promised! again the promise is broken. i don't know what to do. i've given up on you. all i can do is sit and cry, just wondering why. why do they seem to matter more? i've always been the one helping. why does it seem like your not listening? that all you do is ignore. you ignored me when i try to tell you how i feel. you act as though it's no big deal. as though the way i feel doesn't matter. our relationship is a big mess. please, i'm telling you now it's time to change. please don't ignore.
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