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tuesday was the worst day of my life. i knew there's something growing in my face. after i went for the xray, i brought my maid and brother for lunch at jurong point. went shopping and arcade with them too just to waste another hour so i could take my xray results. after that, brought them to karaoke at cash studio. i'm glad my maid and brother enjoyed themselves. they were so funny. when i showed my brother the xray film, he asked... " why are you naked that i can see your bones?" i laughed till i teared. anyway, i'm supposed to go back to the doctor for results review. i dare not. i wasted time with my them again. went for dinner at telok blangah and after much persuasion from patrick and hendria; i finally went. they discovered two growth on both sides of my face. that explains the consistent pain, puffiness, heaviness and blurry visions. he wanted to refer me to the specialist because its getting too complicated for a normal practicioner to handle. i refused and rejected. i told him to let me finish my course or antibiotics first. it might not be life threatening now but it will be in the long run. urgh. i am confused. i don't get any support from my family except for my bestie and dearie and my colleagues. i just don't know what to do. what my family needs from me is money and that is all. how frustrating. he said that i have to have IT removed. i don't want to have scars on my face. to top it up, i am already ugly! wtf. i just don't know what to do. i didn't attend work today and i felt guilty for having patrick to cover for me. need to thank my manager for being so understanding. i just want to fight this and i do want to live long. i just need that support from you..
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