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life is seriously unpredictable. just when you thought everything is going on fine, you dropped. why bother making promises when you plan to just drop it the next hour? i don't know what problem you have with me but at least talk to me before going away. it was just a normal meet up and you have to make a big fuss about it. i won't stop till i am satisfied. i've not blogged for so long. feels weird to be blogging right now. my topics might just be super random. anyway, last two weeks, i had an argument with my best friend. i am glad that now everything has been settled. just remember everyone has their own flaws. nobody is perfect alright. i will always be behind you if ever you need someone to push you. i've always been doing that to everyone. i admit that when it comes to YOU, i kind of neglect YOU. i took YOU for granted. i don't pamper YOU well enough like how YOU pamper me. correct, when it comes to my friends, i can never say no if ever they need any help and when it comes to YOU, i was never direct. i do understand myself but i just can't lay it out. YOU know i limited friends and i treasure EVERYONE who comes into my life. maybe i am just too used to be having YOU by my side always and i was never by your side when YOU needed someone. by the time YOU read this post, i will be waiting for YOU at out normal place. now everything seems to corny. i know you guys will definitely think that all these are so taken from the drama but seriously YOU, i will be waiting. i need and want to know. anyways, here is something for you which i kind of draft it. despite harsh words whispered aloud, despite the way life comes about, my love for you, there is no doubt. but anyways, in any case, we wouldn't be able to meet, whatever i need to say to you will be typed here. so.. sigh. reading your messages again and again, you really want me gone huh. you wanted me to leave you alone. i don't know if it is because of your work that you are so stressed up. anyways... here is for you: -
the times we had together were great. i know that you have always been loving me. think in some ways, you still do now. when you had to go, and for the reasons only we need to know about, you broke my heart completely. you took a piece of it with you that you'll always have to be responsible for. take care of that for me. i didn't think i would ever be able to look at you again or see you again. even though we can never be together as one again, i always want what is best for you and i do want us to continue to keep in touch. the piece of my heart you still have... take care of it as a friend would. a friend who once loved me. i forgive you for the hurt and the pain you caused my heart and i hope you will forgive me too. i want to pick up now from here and start over as friends. i hope you want the same! i'll always have a special love for you!
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