i am updating my blog at this hour specially for my friend, liz. first and foremost, i would like to correct your sentence. this is the first time i am calling you childish. everyone has their childish moments. even i have too. i see it this way. even if cs thinks that you instigated ita and if ita is mature enough to think, things wouldn't be like this. everyone has flaws and we just have to accept their flaw/s. you are right and i understand. you didn't ask ita to not to talk to cs, right? its ita's own decision. i really think you and cs should sit and talk things out. i admit there are times i think cs's off the limits but take whatever she said as a starting point or learning point to improve yourself. i am not siding anyone. i am being neutral. example, last tuesday.. i was so angry with suganthi. i scolded her and didn't acknowledge her after. lucky thing she messaged and apologised. you see, i am just being fair. if she makes a mistake, i will point it out. i am not afraid to point out cs's mistake/s too. don't say that i am one group with them. i don't want to be in any group. i want us to work happily together. then, you decided to be with nora and ita. what can i do? when asked what's the reason/s for you not talking to me, you answered me saying its because you don't want to possess me? what do you mean by that? you are not a ghost to posses me or something. i am 21 and i am mature enough to think what is wrong and what is right. also, reason why i didn't club on saturday because i think it defeats the purpose. the reason why i wanted to club that day is for us to have fun and gathering and catch up with one another. if one member is missing.. then what for right? that is just a small matter. we can always plan for another gathering. don't say i don't know how you feel. again i am saying that i have been through that before. nobody is pushing the blame on you actually. maybe you are thinking too much into stuff. i can see that cs is tensed up also with the current situation. i know that she's sad too. we used to be happy together right? bear in mind that i am not siding anyone here. i believe cs ever talked bad behind my back too. but that won't bring me down. come on liz, look up and prove to her that you are otherwise. i know you can do it. i will still be here for you even though when i need someone, nobody is ever there for me. i will still help you if you need help. i am still your friend, the first effa you know. but if you still want to continue whatever you are doing and refuse to acknowledge me, there is nothing i can do. stop saying i don't understand you. you never try to understand my situation too. god, i feel like i am dedicating this to my boyfriend. lol..
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