i don't know whether i should blog about this topic or not. its been in me for quite sometime. till i blog it then i would feel satisfied. erm.. ok, maybe i shall just give it a go. no harm anyways. lately, the situation at work wasn't so good. now, when i come to work, i don't really feel happy but more tensed. i don't know why. i have this colleague who now maybe dislike me? it was because of my stupid jokes. sigh, we were so close but everything is ruined. i am totally disappointed with myself. i did apologised to her but still, i don't think she is happy. i just want to let her know that i am truly sorry for whatever that i've said and totally regret it. alright, moving on to the next problem. earlier on, i made a major mistake at work. i overlooked some answers and marked it correct. student's mother called in to complain to my boss. :( while i was marking all the class works earlier, my boss approached me. lucky she wasn't screaming at me. she was really soft spoken and i was tooo embarassed to look her in the eyes. she advised me on certain areas where i have to really be aware of. example, student's handwritings, allignment.. etc. i admit i was at fault and just nod my head. apparently, i am not the only one involved in this matter. 2 others are involved too. sigh, i really couldn't concentrate at the last hour because i was too disturbed by the problem. class ended at 6 and i thought i could rush home but i was handed 1 saturday's folder for marking. if the folder has 2 or 3 sheets for marking, i wouldn't mind but it was one whole stack of maths and english worksheets. and with the student's illegible handwriting, it makes the marking process much more slower. i didn't say a word but just mark trying to make up for the mistakes that i've done. ok, this is the annoying part.. while i was marking, 2 colleagues of mine, insteaad of offering help to mark and also help my other colleagues for sorting, they just walk around getting ready to go home. god, don't you have eyes to see? she actually stopped by me and asked.."what are you doing?" ok, hello? what am i doing? she got to be kidding. also, that .. that .. argh, forget it. they are together. some things are better left unsaid. but my friend, liz saw an indignant expression on my face. teresa, i understand how you feel. i feel it too but just hang in there alright? you still have me to make you laugh. hahah. liz, what i can say is... its better to light a candle than curse the darkness.
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