alright, i promised to touch on racism in singapore on my previous post, right? i will not be blogging about that now. something happens which makes me more upset than the racism in singapore. some of you might see it as nothing hurtful but to me it does. my life revolves around my workplace and home. its either work or home. i have no problems with my family and my colleagues. but it seems that my colleague has something against me. no, i am not talking about you, liz. you probably know who i am referring to. i seriously have no idea. she is blowing hot and cold. to that someone, why are you treating me this way? what wrong did i do to you? i am as observant as the others too. don't think i am oblivious to my surroundings. i know very well what is happening but i am just keeping mum about it. i know i have apologised to you and things were fine. now, after liz thought that i refused to talk to her, she followed suit. i really miss those moments where we wil sit and eat together, joke together and even share the darnest secrets together. what is happening? do you really hate me that much? i wish you could come up to me and tell me straight in the face. you know... rather than you go to someone else and complain everything to them. i know can be a dimwit and imbecile at times. please forgive me for whatever i have done or said to you. someone asked me something which made me think. she asked.. why am i so affected by all these and she wants me to just ignore and just continue to work well. well, know what? i just love them so much and if all these goes on for a month, i don't think i can work happily then. earlier on, i wanted to greet her in the morning and when i look at the, god knows whether she pretended not to see me. i feel quite disturbed by it. anyways, yesterday after class, liz messaged me saying.. "whats e fucking probs? wat wrong did i DO TO U"? i laughed when i read her message. she thought that i was angry at her because she cancelled the dinner on me for another reason. oh well, i am like getting used to it and i was fine. so liz, no worries. i am not petty ok? the thing that annoys me terribly is that when i ask the centre a question.. only one answered. i am surprised that my question falls on deaf ears!!! you guys totally ignored me! the expressions and the reactions given.. argh.. it was just so.. unbelievable. if my manager were to read this, she might be smiling and saying.. " now you know how i feel huh.." LOL! anyways, i try my very best to make everyone happy and to please everyone. i think, at least i deserve something better than this. oh whatever.. i am just blogging and the argument between me and liz is over. . . sad sad nurul..
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