i don't feel like blogging about my personal life tonight. i shall blog about a general topic tonight. the four letter word; most commonly known as LOVE. i know in my previous entry i mentioned about not wanting to blog or even think of love. sometimes, you just can't help it. no, i am neither in love nor falling out of love. it happens that recently i've been listening to all the love songs. believe it or not, most of my songs in my mp3 and handphone are all those sentimental love songs. class 95 is back on my list too. i concluded something from all these. i am missing something in my life. i am missing my parents love, sisters love, brother's love and even my maid's love. we may not be affectionate towards each other but we just know that there used to be a strong bond between us.. but my bond with them is loosing and breaking. everybody searching for someone and people need someone to look up to. till now, i never found anyone to fulfill my needs. this is such a lonely place to be and so i learned to depend on me, myself and i. seriously, forgive, i could but to forget the whole situation doesn't sound good. it keeps haunting me every now and then. because of whatever happened, i was rushed to the hospital. everything was so scary. sigh.. anyways, i am quite pissed with people asking me about my 21st birthday celebration. i don't even want to think about it. it will just make me feel depressed. i think some of you know what am i talking about. i don't even have friends showering me with gifts or wishing me but i do have a few left, i hope? i am not asking for more but just.... i shall not mention it here.
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