its nice to have someone who recognizes you eventhough its only your second time dropping by. thanks to lewis. i think sooner or later i will be a member of this cyber shop. well, not exactly a shop meant just for internet using but a game shop. this is the only place where i can comfortably sit(with aircon) and take a good nap. other than that, its the hard rough concrete with ants all around. really an experience. i don't want to bother my cousins, auntie & uncle. thanks for the offer. i have to learn to live life the hard way. can't believe i spent my money on transportation and hotels! if the next night i sleep in the same hotel, i will be a VIP there. anyways, i have to stay over to at hendri's house tomorrow and if i don't stay over her house, she won't accompany me tomorrow to maksu's place. i took half day at work just to attend my cousin's solemnisation ceremony at 4pm on saturday and will be staying over her place. so i will save money for the next two days. got to brainstorm on where to sleep for the next following days, weeks, months or years? unbelievable! i am not sure till when i will survive this way but i have to be strong. i must show them that i can still survive and have a good meal. i just can't get this matter of my mind. been crying now and then. in the bus, in the train, in the cab, in the toilet and before going to sleep. yes i miss them a whole lot. luckily i have my family photo in my wallet so that i can stare and kiss them every night. OBVIOUSLY WITHOUT THAT JERK'S FACE. I HATE YOU, ASSHOLE. JUBIR BIN JAIS, AS FROM TODAY ONWARDS I DON'T KNOW YOU. FUCK YOU! YOU ARE NOT MY FATHER! ok, i am starting to heat up again.. yesterday when i blogged, lewis asked me why i cried. i didn't tell him the story, of course. i told him it was regarding my workplace having problems. tonight, i am not crying. my eyes are dry. i feel happy because my favourite cousin's wedding is nearing. this sunday! yahooooo. all the best ok? erm.. i feeel so tired nowadays and can just fall asleep anywhere. literally anywhere. because of the travelling and moving and shifting around. my body aches. i long for a massage from my maid. sigh..
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