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right now, i am facing a horrible situation. nope, its not about financial problems but its about my family. my family is breaking apart. the truth hurts and last night, we just found out. thank goodness i was craving for char kway teow at vivocity and actually took a cab there just to eat that and to pass some cds to hendri. it was good that she was late because that made me wander by myself around that vivocity. when i was walking, i saw BIG megastore and that reminded me of anuar. i felt the urge to meet and talk things out with him. i called to inform my mother that i a going to have a good talk with him and she agreed. when i met him, thats when things change; totally. i found out about my dad's real life. i was and still is disappointed with him. all these years, i've looked up to him as a hero and the greatest father on earth. when they say all guys are the same, i don't really agree. i always use my dad as a good example of what a father really should be. now, i am with them. all guys are the same including fathers! for the past 3 months, he has been cheating on us. telling lies every single day. for the past 1 month, i've been a spy. following and tailgating wherever my dad goes. thank goodness i have a car to follow him around. if i were to rely on taxis, i'd have lost at least a quart of my savings. for those of you who are not aware of my problem, must be thinking like what am i talking about, right? for those of you who knows my father, you must be shocked too. two weeks ago, my dad asked my mother for permission to marry another one. the most unbelievable thing is that.. he wants to marry his own best friend's wife! anuar is his best friend. my mom's heartbeat nearly stopped and she was actually trying to commit suicide! luckily my maid woke me up in time to tell me that mom's already standing on a stool at the window. i woke up with a jolt and rushed to my mom's room. there she stood waving goodbye to me. quickly, i ran to the window and locked the window grills. thank goodness i managed to calm and pull her down. she asked me what time i end work and i told her i end at 6 and she said ok because you won't see me anymore. obviously i didn't go to work and stayed with her throughout the day. called 2 of my cousins and they came down to help me. i've never experienced this kind of problem before and this is something really very major! i was so frustrated and pissed off. i cannot be more angrier! i wanted to confront my dad but my mom stopped me. she told me not to confront him first as now she really needs him home to talk and everything. she knows my dad is a very hot tempered person and he threatened my mom that if she makes trouble or tell the children, he would actually run away and won't come back and don't ever call him again. what the freaking hell? for the love of god, he is 45 this year and is acting like a child!! you are at fucking fault and you are blaming mom, now? if i get hold of that fucking lady, i will slap her face and all her teeth will drop! too much dramas happening and i can't concentrate at work. its just so difficult. one hand, i am worried for my mom and the other too disturb about this whole problem. many told me to relax and pray that everything will be over soon but only god knows how difficult it is for me to do that. its easier said than done. i can't type anymore and my my sorrows continue...
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