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i get it quite bad, to put it mildly. as if the physical symptoms (spots, bloatedness, lethargy, etc.) aren't bad enough, there's the whole emotional side to it too, which, in my opinion, is worse. from what i've gathered, it manifests itself differently in different people (ranging from mild to massive). but i guess increased sensitivity is experienced across the board...increased sensitivity to words (spoken/unspoken), actions, weather, sound/noise, sad/depressing situations. suddenly you become acutely aware of the hushed silence in the room upon your entry (which could sometimes be due to over-sensitivity...or not). you find yourself getting extremely annoyed over the most trivial of things. and the most irritating part is that you are very aware of what is causing all these. it's not me, it's the bloody hormones! i won't , i must not let it get to me...i feel my grip tighten around the mug as i will my heart to stop beating so wildly. i bite my lip as i try to stop the rage -induced tears from forming and falling. i once saw a documentary that presented a hypothesis for the purpose of pms. it's most probably a case of designing an answer to fit the problem but it makes sense to me all the same. they postulated that pms plays a crucial role in the selection of mating partners. since it coincides with ovulation, it functions to separate the princes from the maggots, if you may. the slightest annoying/disgusting trait will turn the female of the species off and in the long run, prevents that particular trait from being passed down to her offsprings. yes, it sounds very primal and scientific but it's plausible. after thinking long and hard, i distinctly recall two people who i've labelled as perpetual pms sufferers. one is james (yeah, a guy) from the student office...only cos he's so grumpy all the time. but he's been very nice to me this year and i shall retract the earlier statement about him. the other is the korean phd student who seldom smiles and always tortures us during our seminar presentations. i also wish to retract the label that i gave her cos i think she's just a very unhappy person. pity. a couple of years back, i berated a friend of mine cos he was exceptionally fond of using pms as an excuse when i don't treat him nicely. he caught me at a bad time and received an earful about how he shouldn't be making remarks about something that he's never experienced and how this is something which is mostly beyond our conscious control. ok so fair enough, some guys pass such remarks cos they're ignorant and they think it's funny. however, i feel it's a shame that some girls think it's alright if they are the ones who do it. when, in actual fact, they are the ones who should have a better understanding of the matter. it's already tough enough to handle without having to deal with cheeky comments. well, some of them don't get it as bad as others...probably explains the varying attitudes towards it. i guess one has got to understand that no two people experiencing pms have the same thoughts and feelings circulating within them. i don't go around asking moody people, "pms issit?", with a silly grin on my face unless they're guys or i know for sure that it's not pms. treat other people as you would like to be treated. what i've written here is not representative of the entire female population. i speak for myself and probably for a fraction of the population who've been through similar experiences. to me, it is a weakness. a weakness that confronts me each month, a weakness that i fight & wish to overcome, a weakness over which i seem to have very limited control, no matter how hard i try. now, you tell me, do you fancy people making fun of your weaknesses? i'm not asking for special accommodations to be made but a little respect would be nice. p.s. if i'm mean to you all the time, then sorry love. oh didn't i mention...pms also transforms me into an evil, straight-talking, brutally honest monster. haha...who am i to talk about respect then, huh? shame.
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